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Do You Remember?Do you remember that poem you wrote me?
Well, I found it the other day.
It was in my jacket pocket.

I didn't know one piece of paper
Could bring back so many memories.
It's amazing how long it has been
Since you gave it to me.

I am thankful that
I had you in my life.
All the good and bad times,
They made us that much stronger.

Thank you for coming into my life.
Thank you loving me.
I couldn't have asked for anything better.

So you see what a simple
Piece of paper with words on it can do.
It made me remember why I cared so much.
It made me remember you,
So thank you for writing it.

My Guard Is UpI was so vulnerable a long time ago
That my heart has put up walls.
My heart is being guarded by walls,
So that I don't get hurt again.

Maybe that's why I don't fall in love easily.
Maybe that's why I don't know how to love someone.
I am so scared of getting hurt that I distance myself,
And I don't show my feelings to the one's I love.

I keep everything bottled up inside
Because I don't know how to show you my feelings.
I don't know if you will understand any of this,
But I will try my best to show you how I feel.

My guard is up because I don't want to get hurt.
My heart has put up walls,
And it has no desired to tear them down.

Did You Feel It?Did you feel it?
Did you feel me forget you?
Like I had given up,
And let go of you.

I got out before you lit the match.
I left before I could get hurt even more.
Did you feel it when I pulled away?
Did you feel like I was ready to leave?

I hope someday you think back,
To when you had everything right in your arms.
I hope something reminds you of us,
And what we had.
But most of all I hope you think about
How you lost someone who loved you very much.

So did you feel it that day?
Did you feel me forget you?
Did you feel like I was ready to leave?
Did you feel it when I pulled away?
Because I did.

ThoughtsI'm so sick of not being perfect
I'm sick of hurting people
I'm tired of doing nothing right
I'm tired of holding back
Let me scream
Let me lash out
Let me show you the other side of me
And try telling me you still know me

Everything confined inside
It builds until I almost burst
My eyes grow heavy
My fingers claw at my arms
Tear out my hair
Twitch for the blade
I hold back
But I can only hold so much

Then I do it again
I screw up
I hurt
I break
And I fall again
Self-loathing is almost a comfort

I often wonder why
Why am I this way
Why am I messed up
Answers won't be found

I'm sick of hating myself
I'm sick of hidin

PerfectYou might think I am perfect
But really I'm not
Every time I make one mistake
I feel like a disappoint you a lot
You make it seem I don't live up to your expectations at all
Sorry I'm not perfect
I miss the days when mistakes were accepted
When you said just learn from then
Now I don't even get a chance to explain myself before you assume things
But it seems like it's just to late now
Sorry I'm not perfect
When I do something right…
Things are back to how they used to be
But even if I do one little thing wrong
Everything comes tumbling down
Sorry I'm not perfect
I wish I could go back in time to undo all my mistakes

What's Love?What's happened to love?
What's happened to sappy, long love letters?
What's happened to emotions?
Has that all suddenly gone out of date?
Is love now overrated?
Or do only the 'good' people get true love?

What happened to romance?
Romantic poems? Songs?
What happened to feelings for another?
Is it all gone?
Or do only the 'right' people get true love?

What happened to it being only two people? Since when did they allow 'others' to take the love?
What happened to supporting each other? Was that all a joke?
What happened to caring for each other?

Is love not in our era of time? Sorry, I mean 'true love'.
Or is that a

Loves-me Loves-me-notLoves-me
Loves-me-not
A careless game with bits and pieces of my heart
Blue petals scattered onto a fading canvas
Are these blood drops or roses?
I am not afraid of the descent
into a world of moonless reflections
I am afraid of this infernal oblivion
Fragments of a memory piercing my skin
into a thornful embrace
This statue-like emotionless state
My soul is bleeding sleepless tears
Loves-me
Loves-me-not
How does it feel to lose a guide?
Reality fading into a nightmare
I want to reach the sky again
Feel the sun's caress onto my grieving skin
Just for once
Loves-me
Loves-me-not
Why does it hurt so much?
True colors bleed in a rusty endeavor
A fabricated world that sucks me dry
I want to find a way to escape
But not without you

SanctuarySanctuary, this place that I find in only one place.
Yet the torment of the world still reaches me there
Their words do not matter.
But the way they watch drives me crazy
This Sanctuary I find alone
Brings peace to my soul
As it rips and tears through my flesh.
Oh Beautiful Sanctuary.

It's Too LateThis is my apology.
For coming into this world screaming
All you wanted to do was love me
And yet love was the hardest thing for you to do
You told me how much I meant to you
And yet you were never there for me
Only when it is too late do you come running
Only when the clock has struck do you look
It's too late.
Perhaps that is why I am broken
You always told me to be kind
But never did I listen
I didn't listen because you never listened.
But now it's too late
Time is up
Here comes the crow
Singing my tune.
You pull me aside and beg me to answer
But I look into your eyes and you can see it.
It's too late.
If you had loved

No More LightThis dream has become a reality
The once imaginary pain has become real
Kneeling before the altar I scream
The dead pull me apart

They tear at my memories
Twisting reality
Slowly I can see all the dead people walk.
They have come back for me

I did not ask for this pain
The pain that the dead have brought
Life no longer shines in this dark world of pain
Pain created by my mind

The time is soon when I will be consumed
End it all with a quick twist
The graceful blade across a trembling wrist
It is much too late for redemption.

This lifeless body marches with the dead.
Bleeding out all the pain of tomorrow.

HomelessSince you don't see me,
I must not really be there.
Sleeping alone in the streets.
Do you even care?

Our eyes never meet when
you drop your change to me.
This inhuman piece of trash
is all you'll ever see.

I used to have a home,
family, life and friends.
But fate had other plans.
God, when will it end?

You'll blame it on the drink,
or the drugs I must have used.
Not knowing it was life
that left me battered and bruised.

I know I'm not wanted.
You wish I'd just go away.
Well that makes two of us,
Cause I wish it everyday.

If only you could know,
how truly sad it seems.
To leave this greedy world
and all the sorrow it bri

heartlessI want you back
I need you here with me
you have no idea what its like for me

to see your face on strangers on the street
to hear you
("baby, I'm here, don't cry..")
when I wake up crying your name
when I'm begging to feel you holding me when Im weeping on my bedroom floor
when I have to keep my head up to stop myself from coming undone

every memory is like venom
creeping through my blood
the only reason that I fight it
in hope for you
which, in retrospect
is
the venom's most deadly quality

how can you tell me you love me
promise me your hand
tell me I was yours only

then leave me with out a second glance?
did

BeautifulIf I told you I loved you,
Would you believe it?
If I told you you're beautiful,
Could you see it?

You're letting your insecurities get in the way
Of a compliment that could make your day.
You bring yourself down and you won't believe
The things you deny are the things I see
On rainy days you're a little down from the rain
I wanna be the one who washes away your pain
Here's a reminder when you forget,
Here's a reminder when you're upset:

You're beautiful in every little thing you do,
You beat yourself up, but I know what's true,
You're funny. You're friendly.
You're strong and smart.
Disagree, but I know you're kind at heart.

*You're the p

My WordsSometimes I feel empty.
I can't do what I want to do,
because I fear I might be tossed aside.
I want to show the world my art,
My literature,
And that I can sing!
But, I do not.
I don't think anyone would want to hear my inner feelings,
I fear they will leave me standing,
All alone,
Like I have always been.
Who will listen to me,
And not leave me be?

The Worst...The worst wasn't that you weren't open with me,
or knowing that you didn't try,
or even when you dropped me like a box of rocks.
The worst was when you told me you loved me...
...when you obviously didn't.

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When You See HerYou look out through your window,
And you see her waiting for you.
When she notices you staring,
You see her eyes glisten in the sun.

The most beautiful thing you have ever seen.
No one could ever compare.
She's everything you've ever wanted.
She's everything that you need.

Those beautiful brown eyes melt your heart,
And her smile brightens up your darkest days.
What would you do without her?

As you approach this girl, and say hello
She smiles that smile you love,
And makes you realize you have everything
Right in front of you.

I Am Afraid of Loving YouI want to be with you so bad,
But I don't know how to love you.
I have never been good at expressing
My feelings to anyone, but maybe I can to you.

Every wish I had ever made was about you,
And every time I wished on a star I wished for you.
Those wishes never came true, and that is
Why I stopped wishing on stars and birthday cakes.

I was young and believed that if I wished hard enough
Then maybe you would love me back.
Turns out you don't always get what you wished for.

I am afraid of loving you because
I don't know how to love you.
I only know what I see in movies.
I am scared that I might mess it up,
And that is what gets m

Forget It AllNo more stress,
No more lies,
No more regrets,
No more drama,
No more tears,
Just learn from it.

Don't let people
who do not matter put you down
because they don't own you and
they don't control your Life.

Let everything fall into place.
Just take it from your life, and never look back.
There are going to be times when you just want
to scream, but live your life and forget
the ones that don't matter.

No more stress,
No more lies,
No more regrets,
No more drama,
No more tears,
Just learn from it.

Right now is where you should be.
Don't be so caught up with all the problems
in your life, there is a reason that they are

This is My LifeI realized life is over rated
And I should be living my life
To the fullest.

Sometimes I don't even
Want to leave my house.
I know that I have to start going
Places and start hanging out with people

I need to find love again,
And keep them close to me.
I am just afraid of getting hurt
And not being myself.

But I want love, I want to be
Someone's girlfriend,
I want someone to hold
My hand and kiss me
In the pouring rain.
I want someone who
Will fight for me
And care about me.

Maybe because I am
So afraid to take a chance
Is the reason why I am alone?

This is my life and I have to start
Living it for me.

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I Can't Do This Anymore

by ~AngelofLight03, Dec 12, 2012, 9:45:34 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I use to love you,
I use to care,
But now it seems like
I have drifted a different way.

Those feelings that I once had for you,
Are no longer there.
I don't think they will come back either.

Honestly, I can't do this anymore.
I can't pretend to love you when I don't.
So I'll save you heart ache,
And I'll give you time to get over me,
But just know that I don't think I'll ever love you again.

It was nice while it lasted,
But it ended way to fast.
You see my heart let go of you.
It couldn't hang on any longer.

It set itself free,
And decided it was time to move on.
I'm sorry that this happened,
But there is nothing that I can do about it.

I can't do this anymore.
I can't pretend to love you when I don't.
I can't pretend that there is something
Between us when I no longer feel it.

So please forgive,
But I can't love you anymore.
I simply do not know how.
My heart has decided that I have to move on,
So I am telling you that I can't do this anymore.

I Can't Do This Anymoreby ~AngelofLight03

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Let me know what you think about this one.

I wrote this because sometimes people hang on to things/people that they need to let go of, and I was thinking about that. I thought about how I had been in love a few times, and I guess they didn't really know how much I loved them. But getting to know them a little better, and the being away from them opened my eyes, and my heart to new possibilities. I let go of something that wasn't turning out the way that I wanted it to. I began to lose all feelings for that person, and my heart let go of them. I don't know if those feelings will ever come back, but as of right now they are not there, and I can't presume something that is no longer there.

There have been some people who have been in this situation, and that's one of the reasons why I am sharing this with you, because at some point in everyone's life they just can't do it anymore, and they let go.

~SecretAura Dec 16, 2012

beautiful... describes how my life went last week... wording was wonderful

~AngelofLight03 Dec 16, 2012 Student Writer

Thank you so much.

~ZheAwezomeMeh Dec 12, 2012 Writer

This is so very true... This is so wonderful as well.

~AngelofLight03 Dec 12, 2012 Student Writer

Thank you

~ZheAwezomeMeh Dec 12, 2012 Writer

You're welcome

~CrazyRedFire Dec 12, 2012

Very good writing and very true

~AngelofLight03 Dec 12, 2012 Student Writer

Thank you.

~CrazyRedFire Dec 14, 2012

You're welcome!

*Silverkrim Dec 12, 2012 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

Thats beautiful

~AngelofLight03 Dec 12, 2012 Student Writer

Thank you so much.

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